the way we prepared ourselves out there

we are the soldier in our life. we prepare mentally and also physically...guess what there are people who prepared things but tends to forget the things that they wanted to ...we throw ourselves there to make the situation perfect and by we being there we expect we are the best among the rest..why we always psycho us to think that way. is it make things better or is it things just got worst...i dont know i indulge myself to be a puppet at first so people can treat me differently but also by doing that people still keep pushing me..so is it my fault being to nice to open to trust at others...i just need someone to talk....